Me and a Talking Donkey

I am late this week in posting. I am forever being challenged to CHOOSE to not indulge myself. Since starting 40 Days in the Word (40 DITW), I have not been consistently doing a quiet time. Oh I’ve been a lot better than I ever have in my life, but it’s still not a daily thing. I do well the first two days after my small group meets and then the weekend hits and I’m tired and I don’t want to make the effort to study God’s words. Though not always apparent, I do pay for it later some how. This week it was very apparent to me that I didn’t keep my focus on God over the holiday weekend. I know that when I’m not focused on God that I can spiral down in my mental health. One would think that it’d be a great motivator to do what needs to be done to stay mentally healthy but no the un-divine human side of me gets the better of me more times than I’d like. When I indulge myself too long it makes me feel like crap. As it is, it’s hard to be motivated to go to work let alone trying to go when I already feel crappy to a environment that doesn’t really make me feel any better about myself. Part of Pastor Ed’s sermon was about Balaam and his donkey (Numbers 22). What stood out to me was that God funneled Balaam to a point where he had to come face to face with what he was choosing to do. My self-indulgence and the subsequent crappy feelings is my funnel. I am thankful for a God who hears my prayers and helps me through my day even when I’ve gotten off the path and who funnels me back on the way I should be going.